I’m not gonna lie; even though I’m back from a summer of crises, I’m still facing some leftover stuff. That’s a nice way of saying “I still have some shitty and weepy days.” I’m not even kidding; I have days (or hopefully, moments in days) when I feel like things will never really get better. As if things couldn’t be worse, I find that as a christian my faith isn’t always the rock I’d hoped it’d be and even worse? Sometimes christians haven’t exactly been supportive, as though somehow this was all my fault…maybe if I was just a more perfect christian, went to church more, blah blah fucking blah 😦
Anyway, I was having some such moments and lucky for me I had a friend. My girl LT (you know who you are :)) happens to be loving, supportive, understanding, compassionate and so much more AND she’s a christian who understands where I am and why I’m there. There was lots of talking and tissues involved. In the midst of it all, she said “it’s not over yet.” Such a simple statement and yet she might as well have YELLED it coz that’s exactly how I heard it. Don’t get me wrong: a lot of what was said was helpful to me but this simple sentence was a lifesaver tonight.
I share this to say that if you’re out there feeling like shit, try to remember that it’s not over yet. As cliche as it sounds, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and no, it’s not a train 🙂
To my friend LT, thank you for being the kind of friend I’ve needed these last few months, weeks, days and tonight. I love you and I’m thankful to you. Big hugs and kisses your way.